‘Til You Find Your Dream

After years of searching and gradually discovering who I was meant to be, I have found my path, and my life has begun taking shape.

My day begins between 6:30 and 7:00 AM, depending on how drowsy I am, and when the baby wakes up. I get up, feed and change the baby, get ready for work, pray with my husband, and make it out the door for school by 7:30. Luckily, I only live a few blocks from school, so at a brisk pace, I make it there by 7:35, when the school day starts. My hours at school are divided between teaching and helping run the international high school program. I try to “leave school at school,” in the sense of finishing as much work as I can during the day, to avoid hours (that just don’t exist) of grading or class preparation at home. I make it home a little after 3:00, say hello to my husband, and go directly to the baby, to spend time with him until he starts his early evening nap an 1 ½-2 hours later. I usually have lunch ready beforehand, so it’s quick to get, and my husband and I eat while the baby has his bottle. Needless to say, like most mothers, I’ve mastered the skill of eating quickly without getting indigestion. Once the baby is in his crib, I begin about two hours of some writing and editing work for a Catholic cause. This means that “my time” doesn’t begin until around 7:00 PM. I have the hours from then until bed – and the weekend – for everything else that I need, and want, to do – spending time with my husband and relaxing, taking care of the house, cooking and baking, sewing and crocheting, blogging, helping write texts for the Catholic sites my husband runs, playing the piano (I haven’t fit much of that in recently), eating dinner, and doing everything else that just “comes up.” At some point, the baby wakes up for a while, so we have another nice hour or two of family time. Finally, I crawl into bed, exhausted, around midnight.

Needless to say, I’ve found some tricks that help save time. I only cook 2-3 times a week and make enough to last about 3 days each time. I bake about once a week, but make things that stay fresh for a while. I’ve heard that making a double batch of cookies and freezing half the dough works well. I haven’t tried it yet, but I’m planning on it. I make a variety of baby food (or, more accurately, mush) once a week, and freeze it in ice cube trays. This way, we just need to pop a couple of cubes out each day, put it in the microwave, and baby has his meal. I researched this in advance to make sure it wouldn’t be bad for the baby or decrease nutritional value, and found out that it’s no problem, as long as the food doesn’t stay frozen for longer than two weeks.

Even with time saving strategies, I still never have time for everything, and always leave two or three things hovering in the air, while I try to figure out how to complete the juggling act. I’m sure that all of you would fill in the blanks differently, but share the same experience. There are always more things to do than time to do them in.

If I look at my schedule and everything I want to get done, my life is hectic, and I’ve reached the conclusion that it will always be that way, at least for the next 20 years or so. But it never seems that way. Granted, I have bad days and grumpy days, but those are the exception and they’re usually my fault. In general, no matter how many things are pending and undone, I’m very happy and content with whatever I’m doing each day. I think it’s because I love everything I do, and I believe that’s the secret to life. I’m following the deepest desires of my heart and living my dream life. I love my husband and my child. I love teaching. I love homemaking. I love writing and music. I love the laundry less, but there have to be some unpleasant things in life to remind us that we’re not in heaven yet! And, because I love what I do, I always have something to look forward to. Whether it’s being with my husband and watching a movie, having good conversations, feeding the baby, writing or grading papers, I find fulfillment in what I’m doing.

My husband is also fulfilling his dream. He is working from home as he upstarts OneCatholic, his network of Catholic media sites. In addition to combining Eddy’s love for his faith with his love for media, this has been a blessing for us as a family, since we wanted our baby to spend most of his time with one of us during his first years of life. Eddy is just as busy as I am, between making bottles, changing diapers, chasing after our now moving baby, and getting his organization going at the same time. Given our current situation and commitments, there’s plenty we don’t get done. Needless to say, we don’t have time to go out much, or to pursue a lot of hobbies right now. But it doesn’t bother us – we willingly don’t do many things we would like to do, because we choose other things that are more important to us instead. We’re choosing to follow our dreams individually and as a family, and make them reality, in spite of what they cost in other areas, and God has been greatly rewarding us, with a beautiful family and happy life.

I hope that all of you, with your own unique realities, are having a similar experience, and pray that each of you have found the life you were made for – a life of joys, dreams, and some sacrifices, a life of things you love, and a life that fills your heart…  That’s the only life worth searching for, waiting for, and fighting for.

Climb every mountain, search high and low
Follow every byway, every path you know.
Climb every mountain, ford every stream,
Follow every rainbow, ’til you find your dream!

A dream that will need
all the love you can give,
Every day of your life
for as long as you live.

Climb every mountain, ford every stream,
Follow every rainbow, ’til you find your dream!

 

2 thoughts on “‘Til You Find Your Dream

  1. Ellen I thought I was exhausted by my days,with hubby to look after,one dog who has health issues and two cats,plus getting in prayers,cleaning,cooking,bill paying,garden and outside work,of which now in my older years much of that goes undone,remembering to feed the outdoor fish,appointments to make and keep,while I enjoy baking I don’t do much of that anymore,except at Christmas mainly.Phone calls to make.Keeping up with things on the internet.Watch some TV but not a lot.Reading.And like you on and on it goes.But just reading your day makes me exhausted all over again.:-) What amazes me is that you are up between 6:30 and 7:00 am and out the door by 7:30am.
    We are still attending Mass at ST.Peter’s and in order to get there by 7:15 am I need to be up by 4:30am if I’m lucky.(for us it’s a 40-45 min.drive)Morning prayers,get myself ready,plus give the dog her medicine,and her food an hour later,tend to the cats etc.I am wore out by the time we leave.Glad you wrote this blog,very interesting reading about your day and Eddy’s.Welcome to family life.Stay happy.
    Oh by the way I had sent to your parents prayers cards from Fr.Gillooly’s funeral mass and included one for you.But I only had their address in Jordan and then found out they went back to Iraq,so don’t know if they were ever received,of course they weren’t returned if they didn’t get them.
    Have a surprise birthday party to go to this afternoon a friend turning 80 and her family having it over at Cacapon St.Pk.it is 49 degrees out now and windy and cloudy and not to get above 59 degrees but it should be fun.
    Have a beautiful weekend.

    God bless.
    Nancy

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